1-3-19
Life’s journey takes all of us in different directions. No matter how intimate a relationship may be, everyone’s experience is different. This shapes us, it informs how we think, and how we respond. These experiences can be found in the travels we may undertake, the conversations we randomly have, the stories we read, the movies we watch… it’s all of it.
I have been profoundly gifted with a family that has not only supported but encourage my desire to adventure and explore. There are times when I know the randomness of my experiences seem like that, randomness, and I’ve never felt dismissed or denigrated in the re-telling of these experiences.
As a child I grew up constantly moving. It felt like every 9-18 months we could expect to be moving. I knew nothing different, especially as a young child; I just assumed this is what everyone did. Growing up I began to understand the unique nature in my circumstances. This new knowledge also brought new emotional insight. Relationships meant something different to me than I assume they meant to most anyone else my age. I had already learned the importance of appreciating those relationships as much as possible in the moment.
Now, as I continue to grow and travel, explore and experience more and more I’m able to take those connections, and memories with me wherever I go. I don’t have the same need for a personal physical home, as I’ve been able to learn how to carry it with me constantly.
Lyrics:
Where the names were not burned along the wall
Saw a building, high as heaven
But the door was so small, door was so smallI saw rainclouds, little babies
And a bridge that had tumbled to the ground
I saw sinners making music
And I dreamt of that sound, dreamt of that soundI was walking far from home
But I carried your letters all the while
I saw lovers in a window
Whisper want me like time, want me like time
I saw sickness bloom in fruit trees
I saw blood and a bit of it was mine
I saw children in a river
But their lips were still dry, lips were still dry
I was walking far from home
And I found your face mingled in the crowd
Saw a boat-full of believers
Sail off talking too loud, talking too loud
I saw sunlight on the water
Saw a bird fall like a hammer from the sky
An old woman on a speed train
She was closing her eyes, closing her eyes
I saw flowers on a hillside
And a millionaire pissing on the lawn
Saw a prisoner take a pistol
And say join me in song, join me in song
Saw a car crash in the country
Where the prayers run like weeds along the road
I saw strangers stealing kisses
Giving only their clothes, only their clothes
Saw a white dog chase it’s tail
And a pair of hearts carved into a stone
I saw kindness and an angel
Crying “take me back home, take me back home”
Saw a highway, saw an ocean
I saw widows in the temple to the Lord
Naked dancers in the city
How they spoke for us all, spoke for us all
I saw loaded linen tables
And a motherless colt then it was gone
I saw hungry brothers waiting
With the radio on, radio on
I was walking far from home
Where the names were not burned along the wall
Saw a wet road form a circle
And it came like a call, came like a call from the Lord