02-22-19
The foreboding sound of this song creates a looming sense of a slow implosion. Through self-destruction and continued violations of whoever’s boundaries the singer is singing to, she’s been relegated to this point of isolation. It’s at this point that a sense of apprehension is built. There is an image of the consequences which are slowly unfolding, consequences that are direct results of the vicious cycle she’s been a part of.
The demons in our heads are there to get the best of us. It’s their purpose to tear us down and take apart any ounce of self-respect we may possess. None of us are free from their influence, and the lessor of our actions are often under said influence. Their voices chip away at every good thought we have about ourselves, and our purposes. This is a slow effect of apprehension, breaking a person down piece by piece until there isn’t an ability to acknowledge or respond to what’s best for themselves.
This negative spiral is infectious, once you’re in its grasp it’s hard to break free. Feeding it feels like the only logical response, and it feels like the only way you may be able to escape its toxicity. The thoughts that we allow to occupy our minds dictate our perceptions of the world’s we occupy. If we’re creating vile and hate-filled stories in our minds, we will be living vile and hate-filled realities.
Acknowledgment is only part of the equation. Addressing and fighting the toxicity rampant within ourselves are two different things, and this is something that I am in constant struggle with as I know many are as well. We can utilize a myriad of tools to help, but ultimately there is no single solution or “cure-all.”My only solutions have been to respond continuously with patience and unconditional positive regard as much as possible. The method feels futile at many points, and yet it’s still the only thing I’ve continued to find some success in.
Lyrics:
No one else
Needs to know
About this
I can’t help
If you don’t
Let me in
And if we don’t get lost
We might never find the
Truth within us
I’ve been waiting so long
Come back to me
And just be by my side
I know I’m wrong
And I’m sorry if I made you cry
I’m not giving up
Yeah I’ve been doing drugs
Cuz I don’t give a fuck
I just wanna forget
Everything that’s making me feel bad
It’s making me feel so bad
Yeah it’s making me feel so bad
It’s so bad
The demons are filling me up
And I need you back