02-12-19
“When the one man loves the one woman and the one woman loves the one man, the very angels desert heaven and come and sit in the house and sing for joy.” – Brahma Sutra
I say that I just “ended up” living with my wife, which is somewhat true, there wasn’t ever any real formal conversation, at least not at first. You can read a little more about it here (link to Die Young.) After months of living with one another, we just found ourselves as partners in life. We joked about playing “house,” and sure there was some nominal amount of truth to that, we were forging our own futures, slowly, and piece by piece, but we were doing it together.
Throughout this time I had great difficulty in ever feeling comfortable. It took years before I could feel like it was “our house.” It didn’t matter how many meals I cooked, how many bills I paid, the feeling of ownership within the residence was not one that I really ever felt.
After several years we decided it was time to move, and so now we were making the decision to take the plunge, together. Though we may have lived together for the 3 years prior, it was a situation we found ourselves in, as opposed to one we were planning. We found a home, it wasn’t the best home, it wasn’t in the best part of the city, it didn’t have much to it aesthetically, but it had everything we needed, and we were confident that everything else we could easily supply. We weren’t far off. We would find ourselves living in that home for nearly four years. No matter the condition of the neighborhood we took care of our house because we took pride in it, and the lives we were creating.
Each passing day we woke, and we came across dozens of things we would love to change about our home and our conditions. No matter how many things went wrong with that house, we were both comfortable in our home. For the first time in my life, I was indeed beginning to understand the strength in a sedentary existence, and for a person that had always had a hard time defining “home” this new normal was becoming a welcomed change of pace.
Lyrics:
I’ll light the fire
You put the flowers in the vase that you bought today
Staring at the fire for hours and hours while I listen to you
Play your love songs all night long for me, only for me
Come to me now and rest your head for just five minutes, everything is good
Such a cozy room, the windows are illuminated by the
Sunshine through them, fiery gems for you, only for you
Our house is a very, very, very fine house with two cats in the yard
Life used to be so hard
Now everything is easy ’cause of you
And our la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
Our house is a very, very, very fine house with two cats in the yard
Life used to be so hard
Now everything is easy ’cause of you
And our
I’ll light the fire while you place the flowers in the vase that you bought today