12-3-18

Grief can often feel like we’re isolated, alone drifting out to sea with no hope in sight. Its majesty is daunting, and at least in the moment, incalculable to our emotional minds. There’s no wonder that one of the first responses is to abandon the feeling as quickly as possible, and even look for the quickest exit. Our responses to grief can be some of the most dramatic of all emotions. Within its response we can be led to nearly every other emotion.

Succumbing to the weight which grief brings down on us is a natural response, and which no one should ever be afraid of. I suppose on that note, no one should ever be obliged to feel that they should be carrying more than they naturally do. We feel the grief that we feel, and when we don’t feel grief in situations that may warrant it, that doesn’t automatically make us bad people.

When we’re in a state of grief that has to do with external forces, we quickly want to direct that crushing feeling towards any and everyone else. We want to blame anything, even ourselves because it’s easy for us to believe that once we are able to give form to the cause of pain, the pain will go away. Unfortunately, this is not the case, and especially so with grief. There is no logic this emotion truly operates by outside from it being an emotion that can incite most every other emotion.

If possible, this is a song to listen to in both it’s recorded and live forms. The pain and emotion in the singers voice does well to convey the emotion, but the music just seals it.

Lyrics:

Spit it into my mouth so I won’t ever be able to speak again
Now the lake runs from my mouth
Falls down on my chest
Water falls on my chest now
Waterfalls on my chest

I close my eyes and pray I will never see again
Drop me down here, drop me down
Drop me down here

I don’t wanna stand up
Get up
Bye bye

Cause how can I stay for this last time
When you brought evil upon us
Don’t wanna repeat the moment of lust
That time I dropped you
I dropped you inside me
Then dropped you off

I don’t wanna stand up
I don’t wanna stand up

Bring the glue
So I can glue your eyes shut and sin as I like
Bring the glue
So I can pour it into your ears and curse your mother
Curse your father
Curse your brother

Bring the glue so I can shut your eyes forever
And dance with the devil
I don’t wanna stand up
Get up
Bye bye