01-20-19
Boredom comes in multiple forms. If you go online and search “boredom” you’ll find numerous articles even stating that there are 5+ forms of boredom with new versions being discovered. One of the forms that come up consistently is that of “searching.” This boredom comes when we begin to feel restless with the condition of our lives, we may experience negative feelings and a creeping, disagreeable restlessness.
When I think back on periods of boredom, I feel this is where I would categorize myself. I discover I’m bored most when I’m without purpose, put me in a situation where I’m obligated to be there, and the emotion grows rapidly.
Whenever I would listen to this song by AIR/Gordon Tracks, I would feel a certain sense of longing, a yearning for a fleeting feeling that has long since passed, yet considering the hold that past love may have on a person this can become an emotionally tricky area.
I feel I may pose a separate problem in that my “playground loves” were much more abstract—they weren’t people as much as they were concepts and ideas. I had crushes on other kids, but I LOVED to dream about fanciful adventures and grand displays of opulence I could share with the people I loved. Those are dreams that still pull me back from reality, detracting my time, energy and attention from potentially fulfilling them; it’s so much easier to dream about all the things you want as opposed to working for them.
Lyrics:
I’m a high school lover,
and you’re my favorite flavor.
Love is all, all my soul.
You’re my Playground Love.
Yet my hands are shaking.
I feel my body reeling,
times no matter, I’m on fire.
On the playground, love.
You’re the piece of gold
that flashes on my soul.
Extra time, on the ground.
You’re my Playground Love.
Anytime, anywhere,
You’re my Playground Love.